Sometimes, no matter how hard you try to ignore some things, you just can’t deny the truth to yourself that you are so affected by it.. It’s actually some sort of defense mechanism you don’t want to be seen by others as weak, dramatic, and oversensitive, so you try so hard to act like nothing’s wrong.. You say you’re okay though you’re not, you say you moved on when you haven’t even let go, you smile though you’re already dying inside.. You pretend not to care and say you’re glad to let go when you actually regretting it.. It’s really hard to hide those emotions.. It takes a lot of courage to walk away and it also hurts to be lied to, cheated on, and being betrayed so you wear a mask to hide what you are feelin’.. And after all the things has done, you still care, though you know what to do.. You just can’t take the 1st step in moving on ‘cause something is holding you back and that is what you really feel inside that you have no other choice but to be strong.. It’s okay to cry and feel the pain to lessen the burden, itsituation will surely take time, but 1 day you’ll be able to forget.. Keeping all the pain inside will just worsen the , you need to open up and cut the act.. But you don’t have to look pityful and desperate infront of others, be honest with yourself, things have changed and all that is left to do is to let go and start a new life.. :)
There are times when it’s too quiet particularly late at night, or early in the morning.. That’s when you know there’s something lacking in your life, this empty feeling inside of you.. Waiting, hoping, searching, yearning for that special someone you can share everything in life.. Unfortunately that’s how life works… But it would be nice to find real happiness &that’s being loved by someone you love.. :)
Unfair
The only word that I can say after a completely enervating and exhausting day at work.
I haven’t been as positively functional as I was before. All the unanswered questions, all the inconsistencies, and all the loose ends are hampering me from evoking the performer that I was.
I’m starting to loose it. No, I have already lost it.
I try to sustain an invigorating vibe but given the circumstances, I can’t resist dwelling on the things that should be done but aren’t being done. I am no senior executive to make huge decisions for the business but I am hoping that they take into consideration the plea of the many. How can one simply expect to grow and move further if they don’t attend to the unceasing shriek of the legs?
I push myself so hard to not look at the inconsistencies and the irregularities but a person can only bear so much, especially when you are directly being affected by these frolicking issues.
I’m already at the boiling point of my exhaustion meter, and I don’t know how much more I could take before I cause havoc. I simply ask for the simplest comprehensible things. I just need answers.
I may not possess an entrepreneurial mind nor have I got a mindset of an accomplished CEO, but I know that you should always be mindful of the actions and the emotions of your subordinates.
You know something is wrong, do something about it.
Just a thought.
”Our present political systems must relinquish their claims on truth, justice and freedom and have to replace them with the search for truth, justice, freedom and reason.” - Friedrich Durrenmatt
Given the countless political, social and religions issues that our country is dealing with, I am hoping that various entities would be inclined to explore the word that is open-mindedness.
We clamored for freedom in the past but why do we cage ourselves with the knowledge and traditions of yesterday? We have accepted the advancement of technology but why can not we welcome the progress of the human mind? Or the maturity of the term that is freedom?
As the world presses forward, are we finding ourselves backtracking through time? I certainly hope not.
Drop the Act
We are all made to believe that positive thinking leads to a healthier, happier life.
As children, we’re often told to always show a a big white smile, be cheerful and put on a happy face. As adults, we are advised to look on the brighter side of things, make lemonade and see glasses half full rather than half empty.
Sometimes reality can get in our way of the ability to act the happy part though. Your health can fail, relationships do not always endure, friends can disappoint. It’s in thee moments when you just want to get real, drop the act and be your true, scared, unhappy self. But people are scared. We all are.
If you ask hundreds, or even thousands, of people about what they want out of live, the answer is relatively simple…to be happy.
Maybe it’s this expectation of wanting to be happy that hinders us from ever getting there. Maybe the more we try to will ourselves to state of bliss, the more confused we get to the point where we don’t recognize ourselves. Instead we just keep smiling, trying to be the happy people we once were until eventually it hits us…it’s been there all along. Not in dreams or hopes, but in the known, the comfortable, the familiar.
Just Do It
If you know at the back of your head what you want to do ever since, then just do it. Not all people are given the chance to realize their aspirations at an early age so do everything you need to do to achieve and attain it.
You don’t have to be great at whatever it is that you love to do, you just need to love what you want to do and you’re going be great nonetheless.
Unbalanced
The best of both worlds. Is that even possible to attain? Can we really be in two places at once? We place our feet by the sides of the border but can we really balance ourselves being in the in-between?
For some reason, I’ve been starting to feel unbalanced lately. I just feel that something is always lacking and I can’t seem to comprehend it.
Am I just bothered again by the memories of my past? Probably. Reminding me that I am, again, crossing borders way beyond my control.
Why is that when one side is flying high above the ranks, the other seems to constantly loose its weight. You rejoice temporarily but you end up frustrated throughout the process.
I hate being unbalanced. I’ve been longing for symmetry but life always give me disparity and unevenness.
Choosing Sides
It is never easy to a draw a line between what you desire and what intellect tells you to do. It’s the basic dramatic dilemma of the heart and mind. A predicament, I believe, only meant for the valiant souls.
In one way or another, I’m confident that we all have undergone what I call the “crossroad experience”. It’s when life presents us with two or more onerous choices, one usually more favorable than the other, but the gravity of both options are almost of equal proportion, then life gives us the liberty to decide our own faith.
I know how difficult it is to be presented and be pressured with two completely different ideas but have you ever thought how burdensome it would be once you’ve made a decision to choose both options?
For instance, take into example the concept of standing in two places at once made popular by the movie “A Walk to Remember”. Your feet anchored on two different locations yet you have the slightest idea which foot to transfer to another because raising the anchor would mean letting go of another. And admittedly, both sides seems to give us that sufficient amount of pleasure that we crave for. So which one do we set aside?
Well, some people don’t do well at making choices and I, for one, is a perfect example. Not because I’m immature, not because I’m not equipped, but rather because I cling on to hope that both paths would eventually lead to the same direction. What am I even thinking?
Not likely to happen. But sometimes, hope is what we look for when all else is unconventional and unfamiliar.
I might not be someone’s first priority, but i am a great choice.
I don’t pretend to someone i’m not, because i’m good at being me.
I might not be proud of some of the things i’ve done in my past, but i am proud of who i am today.
I may not be perfect, but i don’t need to be.
Take me as I AM, or watch me as i walk away..
Only You
Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you’ll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there’s also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself is the same person who’s been standing beside you all along.
Hacked!!!!
oh hi baby! let me start off by saying happy 3yrs (almost there). never thought we’d last this long, in the beginning, did yah? well we’ve been through the heights and depths of relationships— from the distance to the bs that was brought along… we made it. to clarify this for anyone who might be reading, it wasn’t easy, but it sure made us stronger. each fight or problem made us bigger as a whole. we went from fighting about whether or not you could do this to fighting about underestimating each others love. i know, technically, were not even partially on our way to the next step but like we always say “happy just isn’t happy without you” so you can count on me to be there until we are. i am so blessed to call you mine your smart, artistic, and, i know for a fact, that all the guys would agree with me when i call you drop dead gorgeous. there’s no downside to you… but that’s not what keeps me going. you keep me going. your reassurance to never forget to explain how much you love me everytime we speak and how by a single touch i can translate all your emotions for my understanding. its us that makes me want to keep going… cus baby i can sit here and explain how amazing you are, but really… how we fit so perfectly is what keeps this one of a kind. babe… and as long as your love stays true we’ve got forever and always left aight? i love you and i miss you so much. mine. =D
Mommy :D
Dear Mommy
I know I’m not the perfect child you always wanted. I argue back with you and hurt your feelings all the time. I’m an angry teenager to wants to go out and get into a relationship, even though you just want me to stay home then work. I know it was hard raising me with the hard lives you had. I know I say really hurtful things sometimes and don’t think with my head. I know I can be stubborn just like you. I don’t always do the things I promise to do. Simple things I could do to help you. I’m sorry, Mom. for everything.
i dont think that you realize how stupid you are. everything that you say makes you look like an idiot. and the sad part is you didnt punish me untill i proved you wrong. I may not always like the way you raise your left eyebrow and the tone of your voice while talking to me, but I’ll always love you and your pretty eyes.
I love you so much and I’m so thankful that I have a mother like you. You’re the most beautiful and strongest woman I know. Thank you for raising me for the 22 years of my life. Happy Mother’s day Mommy. I love you! :-)
GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS
Girls girls girls.
I hope girls knew this!
In hopes of helping girls better understand the PS2 gender—without reverting to that tired, old “inside a guy’s mind” cliche— Here are some, :)
1 Calling you on the phone does not mean what you think it means.
“Please, tell me why a girl thinks calling her equals I want her to be my girlfriend,” so Blunt, but we like blunt. NearlyI feel tons of pressure from girls when it comes to the telephone. “It’s like calling a girl means I’m admitting I like her, but that’s not what’s u. “It’s more like I’m calling because I might like her. I hate calling because the next day the girl acts like she owns me. Or, if she’s shy, suddenly she can barely talk to me because she’s scared. It’s stupid.”
Knowledge is power You know you’re hung up on the phone if, when a guy calls, you think you have some kind of romantic upper hand. I’m just calling because you’re cute or nice or whatever. If you treat me like I’m a dog just because I think you’re cool enough to dial up, then you’re a b-word. In other words, for a guy, it’s just a phone call, not a confession of undying love. Hel-lo?
2 You are much prettier without all that makeup.
I can’t stand makeup. In fact, it seems I can’t complain about it enough. Sure, I like pretty girls, but I hate a face that looks full-on painted.
“Why do girls think they need to have so much crap on their faces? I think that’s kinda sucks.
3 When you act spazzy and giggly, ifs seriously embarrassing.
What is up with girls hopping up and down when they’re happy about something? A girl definitely invented the word ‘yay!’ because no guy I know has ever used it.” Are you guilty of doing the Gily Woo-hoo! dance? It’s a combo of baby claps and bobbing on your toes while emitting high-pitched squeals of delight. This all in reaction to, say, seeing the slide projector set up upon entering French class.
What’s the big deal? “I really do want to know why are girls so excited about normal stuff, Every other thing, it’s like, ‘Ohmigosh! No way!” lol
We’re not here to tell you how to act. Just tuck it in the back of your mind that all the boys we surveyed agree that girls could mellow out a little. Let’s have a round of baby-claps for that, please. haha
4 Gossiping, whispering and writing notes makes y on look beyond shallow.
Girls are always passing notes around in class, and it’s just so friggin’ dumb? Or they’ll look right at me, then whisper to each other and laugh. Do they want me to think they’re talking about me? ‘Cause I do. And if it’s really true and they are talking about me, then that’s just lame.”
Rude is the word, actually. Whispering, especially with the cupped hand at your girl’s ear, is just so third grade. And gossip? “When I hear one girl talk trash about another girl, it’s like I can’t believe it. like I’m in a bad movie about how mean girls are. If I heard my friends were talking about me like that, I’d transfer schools. lol
5 Boys worry about what you think of their hair, skin, weight and clothes.
Girls like guys with good bodies but, when I try to get six-pack abs, it never works. I just feel like I have a spare tire all the time. lol
A recent nationally televised newsmagazine show had a big story about how men are the new vanity victims, and how they stress on their looks as much or more than women. But, if a guy suffers vanity, he doesn’t talk about it—at least, not to girls and not as much as girls.
6 PMS is no excuse to he mean.
I know girls get weird at ‘that time of the month,’ but I don’t get why they have to act like I’m their worst enemy? Sometimes, my sister acts like she wishes I were dead because I won’t give her the remote control, but all that’s going on is she’s PMSing. Screaming at me and freaking out on me isn’t right.”
We know what you’re thinking: Boys just don’t understand what it feels like to wake up with serious cramps and have to get up from that warm bed at 6 a.m. to put on tight jeans over a bloated belly so you can go do fractionals in homeroom. So, yeah, we feel your pain—and we really mean feel it. But that’s the point: Boys don’t. :)
7 Talking about your “big” butt is so boring.
If there’s one thing I can’t stand, it’s when a girl asks me if she looks fat. For one thing, I don’t know if you’re fat. For another thing, I really dont care about yer weight.
Boys do not want to listen to a girl’s insecurities about her body. True, some guys have issues with what a girl weighs, but they all have different tastes when it comes to the feminine physique. Some guys like booties like Jennifer Lopez’s. Other guys like their girls thin as a fence post. Who cares? You are what you are, so talking about your body is about as interesting as studying the Dead Sea.
8 Tight clothes look uncomfortable, cheap, and sort of desperate and insecure.
My sister complains that boys always stare at her boobs, but she wears tight shirts that totally show off her boobs.
If you find Christina Aguilera garb cute, just know that popstars have lots of perks—one of which is wearing costumes. However “street” they look, these duds are designed for performing. If you copy Christina’s skin-tillating take on everyday clothes, you give off a very definite vibe that’s all about exposure and “look at my bod” exhibitionism. Is that really what you want? Think of it this way: If you overheard a boy say about you, “I want to go out with her because she has great cleavage and I can see part of her butt every day in her short shorts,” would you be offended or flattered? Hint: Be offended! hahaha
That’s all for now!
AFTER BREAK - UP.
He was a major part of your life; of course you’ll miss him; it’s perfectly normal. It’s like getting a tooth pulled out; after the dentist pulls it, you’re relieved. But how many times do you run your tongue over the spot where it once was ? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it was hurting you, doesn’t mean you don’t notice it. It leaves a gap, and sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It’s going to take a while, but it always takes some time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, because it was causing you pain. Pulling the tooth was the right decision, but it’s still going to hurt.
Learn to keep going!
